so as many of you probably noticed i have been significantly less
prolific in the past few weeks, this is the direct result of my recent
obtaining of a prescription for ambien.
before this i was a raging insomniac and would often find myself
inspired to write/rant as the misery of watching another sunrise
through partially open eyes, trying to process it to a sleep deprived
brain, overwhelmed me.
turned out complete mental and physical exhaustion was a great
motivator for me to write, and now that i have found the most wonderous
of sleep aids i have lost that nutural catalyst to produce.
on the plus side for the first time in as long as i can remember i
am going to sleep at a reasonable hour (3:30ish) and waking up about
10hrs later feeling decently refreshed and ready to fish all day…errrrr… seize the fish….errrr…. seize the day.
in general that seizing consists of lounging around the
house, taking tucker out on walks, and putting in anywhere from 0-18hrsat the poker tables.
the one thing i don’t seem to be able to do during the day, besides
excercise and contribute to the social good, is write in my
blog.
for reasons that elude me i am unable to write anything while the sun is up.
i got so desperate for material i called up blue shield customer
service, figuring that would fire me up, but alas they were polite and
helpful.
gee thanks guys, way to come thru for me.
clearly there is a glitch in the matrix.
now some of you might say the obvious answer to my writing block is
to kick the sleeping habit and welcome back the raging insomnia that
has plagued me for the past few years out of a devotion to creativity,
which i can understand.
but you have to look at it from my perspective, i LOOOOVE to sleep,
and my bed is SUPPPPPER comfortable, and you have no idea how nice it
is to fall asleep when the moon is still ruling the sky.
not to mention you never really feel refreshed when you don’t fall
asleep until your body is so physically exhausted that it just gives up on you, and wake up sometime later with no recollection of having passed out.
so the ambien stays for now, but maybe if i really can’t get
anything good down, i’ll skip my dose one night a week and return to my
sleep-deprived madness, and blog like a half-crazed meth addict
jonesing for a fix.